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Because life sometimes sucks

Ok, so I don’t usually talk about my life here. And I know most likely nobody is going to read this, but I needed to talk about it with someone.
There is just one person in here who knows me in real life (you know who you are) but sometimes I feel you guys will probably understand me better than my real life friends, even though we might just reblog or like each other’s posts.
I have a good life, I have friends, a good family and I’ve finally became a doctor a few months ago. However I feel really stressed and sometimes even miserable.
I’m studying for the STEP 3 (an exam that will allow me to choose the specialty I want to do) which means I have to study an overall of 9 -10 hours a day. I am still far from getting the score I need in order to get into general surgery.
Also, my mother is depressed because both of her parents have dementia and she has to take care of them. She won’t talk about how she feels about it with anyone. This means she is upset and angry all the time, and everything unnerves her. Whatever my father or I say/do, she might take it as an insult, and she will shout at us and close herself in a room for hours tiding everything up (even though the room is already tidy) or doing the laundry several times or cooking or ironing the clothes without allowing anyone close to her (obviously crying while doing so).
On another hand my father is also stressed because of this, and because his own parents are starting to get old and he can’t talk about it because the state of my mom’s parents is far worse.
All of this means I end up feeling really stressed because o f my mum, my dad (he has a disease that will cause him aneurysms which will break if his blood pressure gets really high, so being stressed is no good for him at all), and because of my poor results regarding the STEP 3.
I feel like a really bad daughter because my parents are supporting me (economically and psychologically) regarding my STEP 3 and my life in general, but I don’t do much to help them.
I am sorry for the depressing post, but I really needed to let it all out!
PS. At least I don’t have to deal with the stress coming from having to come out and my family not accepting it, since it already happened a few years ago when I was involuntarily outed and I almost had to get out of home because I couldn’t put up with arguing with my parents everyday (Regarding this everything is better)
PPS. I really, really love my parents, which is why I am so worried about them (even if after reading all these ramblings doesn’t sound like it).
PPPS. Sorry for the orthographic faults (not my native language)
Thanks for posting this... I want gen surg as well and even though I'm still a couple years away from those applications, I fully appreciate how stressful and depressing it can be
I didn't want to discourage anyone, yes it can get stressful, but if you really like gen surg it is really really worth it! :
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Getting Better: 200 Years of Medicine

This 45-minute documentary explores three remarkable stories of medical progress that have taken place over the course of the long history of the New England Journal of Medicine.  In 1812, we had no understanding of infectious disease, surgery was unsanitary and performed without anesthesia, and cancer was unrecognized. Two centuries later, this film tells the story of research, clinical practice, and patient care, and of how we have continued to get better over the last 200 years.

(Fuente: nejm200.nejm.org)

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